pray for them..

salam...

dalam beberapa ari neh, irene xsehat.. haa... sempot x hengat nyer!! ais? xde lah! irene mane de menom ais ngat.. kalo order ais pun, kurang ais.. haa camno? tanyer ida kantin, tau laa dier..

hmm.. n dalam beberapa mggu nih gak, irene prati, bebrapa sahabat yang irene sayangi, di landa duka.. ade yang nampak macam terluka sket jek, ade yang nampak makan dalam, dan ade yang nampak nyer, terus berpaling. ishhhkk.. irene tenggelam punca. tiada siapa pun yang menyuarakan.. irene just perati jek keadaan melaui status update dan juga komen para pembaca..

sahabat, i know i am far from all of you, but all of you are never far from my heart.. close enuff. and i know, all of you have your trusted friend to be your shoulder to cry on, and hopefully smiles will appear on those faces again, not the tears...

and guys, i am not good with words.. u know how straightforward i am, but would like to give mu assurance, 'what ever the options have left for you, choose the right one, and i will always be by you side (no literally lah!)'

ok guys, before we end, of of my dearest friends yang de prob tu, dier share this vid at her page. so now, i would like to share with you ppl..

here yours...



DILEMA CINTA - UNGU

seberapa salahkah diriku
hingga kau sakiti aku begitu menusukku
inikah cara membalas
aku yang slalu ada saat kau terluka

seberapa hinanya diriku
hingga kau ludahi semua yang ku beri untukmu
tak ada satupun perasaan
yang mampu membuatku begitu terluka

Reff:
namun ku terlanjur mencintai dirimu
terlambat bagiku pergi darimu
begitu terlalu indah perasaan itu
tak mudah untukku jauh darimu

telah kucoba segala cara
tuk bahagiakan kamu merebut hatimu
namun tak semudah yang ku bayangkan
bila kau tak inginkan ku tuk disisimu

tak pernah kurasakan sebelumnya
menginginkan dirinya hingga ku tak kuasa
meyakini hatiku bahwa ku mampu berlalu

I AM JUST A GIRL!!

salam..

pepagi dendemam neh, leh plak gua just nak layan farmville kan.. kang kui semilan nak bawak bebdak tu g li baju n kelengkapan skola.. aisehh.. kopak g gua.. tp xpe, as long as duwet aku x ngalir kat karok, gua x kesahh..

huhuhu semalam gua dapat lepas gian gua.. gua shopping kat butik adidas, xhengat!! men amik jek pe barang gua nak!! sampai adik tu tanyer, akak, nape x borong sme skalik kat kedai neh!! iskk loyar buruk ko ekk deq!! kire naseb baek laa ko entertain aku, ko dapat komisen deq non oii!!!

hmm.. semlm dok bia jek dalm bonet kete. xleh bawak masuk, nnt abang gua bising! bukan pe.. patut skang neh kene jimat sket, tp latly neh gua membantai menghabeskan duwett.. iskk.. gua practise retail therapy!!!

huhuh.. nak upload ke barang gua li semaalam?? alaa.. beberapa helai tshirt n workout apparel, then satu set track n jacket.. hmm sepasang kasut yang finally aku dapat jumpe saiz aku!! wehh bengang tau.. asyik xde saiz jek tiap kali aku pi sane!!


hmm.. ok laaa.. my lucky song for today, as i switch on my tune, tetibe lagu nih plak yang kua.. ok aa.. enjoy!!!



JUST A GIRL - NO DOUBT
Take this pink ribbon off my eyes
I'm exposed
And it's no big surprise
Don't you think I know
Exactly where I stand
This world is forcing me
To hold your hand
'Cause I'm just a girl, little 'ol me
Don't let me out of your sight
I'm just a girl, all pretty and petite
So don't let me have any rights

Oh...I've had it up to here!
The moment that I step outside
So many reasons
For me to run and hide
I can't do the little things I hold so dear
'Cause it's all those little things
That I fear

'Cause I'm just a girl I'd rather not be
'Cause they won't let me drive
Late at night I'm just a girl,
Guess I'm some kind of freak
'Cause they all sit and stare
With their eyes

I'm just a girl,
Take a good look at me
Just your typical prototype

Oh...I've had it up to here!
Oh...am I making myself clear?
I'm just a girl
I'm just a girl in the world...
That's all that you'll let me be!
I'm just a girl, living in captivity
Your rule of thumb
Makes me worry some

I'm just a girl, what's my destiny?
What I've succumbed to Is making me numb
I'm just a girl, my apologies
What I've become is so burdensome
I'm just a girl, lucky me
Twiddle-dum there's no comparison

Oh...I've had it up to!
Oh...I've had it up to!!
Oh...I've had it up to here!

GET IN THE RING!!

salam...

satu masa dulu, irene neh xleh lekang dari walkman SONY irene.. wuiisshhhh time skola dulu, walkman SONY tu perkara wajib.. kirenyer macam iPod or MP3 skang aaa.. xpun macam enpon laa skang...

dulu irene ske layanz lagu yang irene tape sendrik dari radio.. for info abah irene xske irene li kaset memaner artis.. jd ape yang irene leh wat ialah, record dari radio...

tp as mekaen besau, irene da pandai carik duwet sendrik, da pandai kompol duit agik.. irene start li kaset or album yang irene gemo or aim.. few collections of white snakes, scorpions, GNR, Metalica da juga PILGRIMS and Kugiran di Tepi Pantai.. iskk..

tp yang paling irene sayang n org kate bg extra attention, USE YOUR ILLUSIONS II. huhuhu.. mmg sangat sayang.. sampaikan ase nyer dulu, leh hafal laa sme lagu dalam tu.. tp jgn suh irene recall balik skang.. otak ne da merepot.. maken tua aa katakan..

well, here irene nak uploadkan vid salah satu lagu yang mmg fav irene kt lam album neh.. enjoy guys!!

GET IN THE RING!!!




Why do you look at me when you hate me
Why should I look at you when you make me hate you too
I sense a smell of retribution in the air
I don't even understand why the fuck you even care
And I don't need your jealousy yeah
Why drag me down in your misery

And when you stare don't you think I feel it
But I'm gonna deal it back to you in spades
When I'm havin' fun ya know I can't conceal it
'Cause I know you'd never cut it in my game- Oh no
And when you're talkin' about a vasectomy- Yeah
I'll be writin' down your obituary-
HISTORY

You got your bitches with
the silicone injections
Crystal meth and yeast infections
Bleached blond hair,
Collagen lip projections
Who are you to criticize my intentions
Got your subtle manipulative devices
Just like you I got my vices
I got a thought that would be nice
I'd like to crush your head tight in my vice- PAIN!!

And that goes for all you punks in the press
That want to start shit by printin' lies instead of the things we said
That means you
Andy Secher at Hit Parader
Circus Magazine
Mick Wall at Kerrang
Bob Guccione Jr. at Spin,
What you pissed off cuz your dad gets more pussy than you?
Fuck you
Suck my fuckin' dick

You be rippin' off the fuckin' kids
While they be payin' their hard earned money to read about the bands
They want to know about
Printin' lies startin' controversy
You wanta antagonize me
Antagonize me motherfucker
Get in the ring motherfucker
And I'll kick your bitchy little ass
PUNK

I don't like you, I just hate you
I gonna kick your ass,
Oh yeah! Ohyeah!

You may not like our integrity yeah
We built a world out of anarchy
Oh yeah!

AND IN THIS CORNER WEIGHING IN AT 850 POUNDS- GUNS N' ROSES

Get in the ring
Yeah

Yeah this song is dedicated to
All the Guns n'fuckin' Roses fans
Who stuck with us through all the Fucking shit
And to all those opposed...
Hmm...well

p/s: couldnt get the right vid laa... cam siyot jek you tube!!

NUR KASIH

salam...

mggu neh episod akhir NUR KASIH.. sebuah drama siri yang telah mencetuskan fenomena di kalangan penonton drama melayu.. irene sendrik sebagai seorang manusia yang jarang menonton tv pun, akan melekat depan tv..

bukan irene soang ek, ramai g penonton yang diluar tu yang akan menitiskan air mata menonton kisah perjalanan hidup NUR AMINA yang mencari kebahagiaan buat dirinya.. aisehh xnak le melankolik di sini.. rasanya, sme org tau tg drama neh kan..

but yang pasti, fenomena NUR KASIH disekolah irene x hanya pada guru melayu, malah pada guru bukan melayu.. setiap hari isnin, pasti jadi perbualan hangat.. hinggakan pada yang x mengikuti siri ini dari awal, akan menonton secara online, web tv3 atau sumber laen...

tp mggu nih last episod.. iskk.. kan best kalo bersambung... tp ye lah kan, macam SPA Q, biler wat musim kedua, jd cam hampeh!!!

well, irene letakkan di sini, vid dari penyanyi NUR KASIH, YASSIN, yang mempersembahkan lagu ini sewaktu SEPARUH AKHIR MUZIK MUZIK mggu lepas..

ENJOY!!




Lewat ini ku rasakan
Kasih kian ku dambakan
Resah hati yang ku pendam
Pada takdir dan harapan

Detik waktu dan suratan
Siapa tahu ketentuan
Ku mencari cahayanya
Dalam bayang kegelapan

Nur kasih
Nur kasih

Nasib hidup dan pilihan
Lain hukum setiap insan
Mengharapkan perjalanan
Dalam maya kesamaran

Nur kasih
Nur kasih

Aku kembali kerana masih
Mencari yang hakiki
Sinar pasti
Janji suci yang abadi

Ooo kasih
Nur kasih
Oh nur kasih
Nur kasih

Aku kembali kerana
Masih mencari yang hakiki
Sinar pasti
Janji suci yang abadi

Nur nur ya nur kasih
Nur ya nur kasih
Nur nur kasih
Nur kasih..


p/s: irene carik kebahagiaan diri irene gak.. tp di mana ekk kebahagiaan irene tu bersembunyik?? hmm....

waahhhh!!!

salam...

huk huk huk....
suda almost dua bulan tau!!!!

gile lama dua bulan tuh!!!

da ase senak.. sesak gegiler aa neh!!!!

tapi akhirnya, lepas hampir dua bulan, berjaya jua ditamatkan riwayat nyer...

da x tahan da nak nanggung kesakitan!!!

aheh!!!!!!!

BESTNYER TENGOK LAM AKAUN, GAJI DA MASOK!!!!

YEAY!!!!!!

TIME IS RUNNING OUT - MUSE

salamz...

da lama da donlod lagu neh.. n dalam sebulan neh layanz lagu neh jek pong lam kete.. dok repeat manyak kali.. aheheh... bikin kasik naik itu speed kalo lambat g keje.. wakakaka.. makeh kuat dier jerit, makin kuat gua tekan pedal minyak...

actually lagu nih da jadik theme song gua sejak setahun lepas.. ade sebab beb!! tapi kalo xde sebab pun, mmg gua ngan adik gua layanz MUSE nih sesangat!!!

wuuuhhhuuuuu!!! ENJOY!!!



I think I'm drowning
Asphyxiated
I wanna break this spell
you've created

You're something beautiful
A contradiction
I wanna play the game
I want the friction

You will be the death of me
Yeah You will be the death of me
Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

Our time is running out
Our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out

I wanted freedom
Bound and restricted
I tried to give you up
But I'm addicted

Now that you know I'm trapped
sense of elation
You'd never dream of
Breaking this fixation

You will squeeze the life out of me

Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

our time is running out
our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out
How did it come to this?
ooooohh

yeah You will suck the life out of me

Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

our time is running out
our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out
How did it come to this?
Ooooohh

DEAR GOD , i wish for miracle..

salam...
irene ngah try upload pic wedding (not weeding yerr..) hana ngan nonet kat melaka semalam... hmm.. cam ampeh kan.. berpuluh kali upload failed.. xtau pe yang xkene..

well.. tetibe teringat si emma victor tu suh donlod kan lagu dari ADAM LAMBERT - TIME FOR MIRACLE. sape adam lambert tu pun irene xtau.. sampai le nih aa.. ooo.. peserta AMERACAN IDOL 10.. huhu.. maklom le.. tahun neh irene xde ngikot ngat AI nehh.. xde mase tgk tv.. kureng minat pun.. season baru 90210 pun irene x tgk.. nenanti le... serius... xde keinginan.. irene ngah gile membaca skang.. ye laa.. da lama ngat irene ase irene neh x membaca... so, irene de spend beberapa ratus hengget bebaru neh for my mini library.. with JAMES PETERSON and CECILIA AHERN novels... iskk.. layanz..

tgk balik lagu neh.. iskk.. de maksud upenyer... iskk.. kene batang idung aku gak.. ema, lagu nih de kene batang idong ko gak ke??

hmm.. my dearest ema, this is for u.. hope u like it... love u ma fren!!



It's late at night and I can't sleep
Missing you just runs too deep
Oh I can't breathe thinking of your smile.

Every kiss I can't forget
This aching heart ain't broken yet
Oh God I wish I could make you see
Cause I know this flame isn't dying
So nothing can stop me from trying

Baby you know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cause I ain't giving up on love
You know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cause I ain't giving up on love
No I ain't giving up on us

I just want to be with you
Cause living is so hard to do
When all I know is trapped inside your eyes

The future I cannot forget
This aching heart ain't broken yet
Oh God I wish I could make you see
Cause I know this flame isn't dying
So nothing can stop me from trying

Baby you know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cause I ain't giving up on love
You know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cause I ain't giving up on love
No I ain't giving up on us

Baby can you feel it coming?
You know I can hear it,
Hear every soul,
Baby when you feel me feeling you

You know it's time...

Baby you know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cause I ain't giving up on love
You know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cause I ain't giving up on love

You know I ain't giving up on us
You know I ain't giving up on
Oh I ain't giving up on us

!

Everyone Connects!!!

gile babas irene ske iklan neh.. hahahaha...

CUTEsgt kan!!!!

here is the lyric...


Bunkface

THROUGH MY WINDOW

Don’t want much, I just want everything
Thought that I could, do almost anything
One step in front of the other
Thought that I could do it alone

In the blink of an eye, it’s just another day
Telling me why, I’ll find another way
Got this feeling, got me reeling
I can almost start believing

Now there’s me and you
And we are not alone
You and me
We are together now
Through my window, I can see there’s
More than you and more than me
Me and you
And we are not alone
Different view
We are together now
Through my window, I can see
Our wildest dreams could be so real

I see a spark, it starts a fire
Is this the one worth waiting for?
Thought that I could do it without you
Can’t exist like this anymore

Now there’s me and you
And we are not alone
You and me
We are together now
Through my window, I can see there’s
More than you and more than me

Now there’s me and you, you and me
We are not alone and we are together
Through my window I can see
Our wildest dreams could be so real

POT LUCK DEEPARAYA!!!

salam...

kui 5 suku neh.. sejuk.. semalam sepanjang malam ujan.. huhu.. tp irene mangun jek sebab semalam tdo agak awal sebab boring wimax bengong.. actually semalam lagik nak update blog, nak citer pasal kemeriahan deeparaya, tp da wimax nih mengreject keadaan, so maleh aa..

pot luck deepaaya.. hmm.. best!! bab makan neh mmg best!! aheh! bebrapa guiru menyumbang cni sane sket soang.. cam irene, wat nasik lemak. lengkap ngan telur n sambal ikan bilis, xlupa timun n kacang. ongkos nya dikongsi bersama ngan liza n kak ton. pengetua order nasik hempet n rendang ayam dari en ali. geng cikgu india plak, berkongsi duit n serahkan pada hardeep utk masak capati n kuah kari kacang kuda. pas2 x hengat sape de wat bihun goreng.. menu lagik.. haaa.. wazni ngan yazid plak lemang.. huhu.. naimah plak ngan cocktail buah n susu nya.. iskk.. n menmacam beskot rayer!!! n banyak sangat makanan semalam.. syukur alhamdulillah.. mmg rezeki semua guru pagi semalam.. ngan mak cik tukang sapu, pembantu makmal, geng pejabat, sme dok makan skalik. nasebbaek irene mmg bawak pinggan n sudu plastik yang dok lebey pakai kat mini open house ari tu.. hehehe.. alamdulillah...

gamba? irene ngah upload kat fb. sesape nak tgk, silakan laa ekk.. tp hanya friends irene jek yang leh tgk. irene da set dir g2. bukan xnak share ngan outsider.. tp maleh laa.. fb irene neh private... xnak de students yang menerjah menjengah.. kekekeke..

kat fs? insya allh, kalo berkesempatan irene masokkan. tp bukan skang laa ek.. sebab limited time. jab g irene nak sensiap g skola... ahehehehe

ok laa.. a very short n brief one this time. baru bangun xleh nak pk idea nak tulis pepanjang.. kalo semalam maseh hangat eventnyer, may be irene leh tulis panjang berjela-jela...

take care all!!! teachers, thank you!!

HEHEHEHE....

SALAM..

nape hehehehe?? de.. de sebab nya...

sebelum tu irene nak say sorry sebab lama ngat x menjengah ke blog neh.. bukan pe... irene mmg bz tahap ya amat.. sangat!! hehe.. tp dengan berlalunya PMR, haa.. alhamdulillah, sedikit sebanyak irene de masa utk lihat dan memerhati beberapa perkara yang irene x sempat nak amik tau buat bebrapa ketika..

first of all, apsal ari nih irene hehehe.. sebab beberapa ari nih irene da berjaya melaksana beberapa perkare. 1st, irene da g setelkan kat bank td my last instalment, so, berkuatkuasa td, my BABY, huhu is fully mine.. kat geran da tertulis nama irene da, bukan lagi name bank.. alhamdulillah.. my first harta yang da bebas dari utang...

pejam celik, pejam celik, da nam tahun my BABY setia menemani irene. dari pahang, ke kl, ke tganu, ke melaka, ke perak, ke N9,dier da peluang g.. berdua sahaja ngan dier.. ada kala nya bertiga dan berempat dengat sahabat, tp kebanyakan berdua lah.. de banyak suka duka irene ngan my BABY.. crank pulley pecah di waktu tengah malam, kene hentam dengan org di waktu sahur dua mggu sebelum raya bebetul depan umah. kene gores ngan plajar yang marahkan irene, n paling irene xkan lupe, kerana irene bawak WIRA SE ke pahang, ke sekolah irene, membuatkan beberapa pihak tertarik dan ingin membeli.. hikhikhik... mereka kate, "terpesona plak tgk bile tgk erin bawak" hehehe.. n yang di bukit mendi pula, dorang panggey BABY irene MR FERRARI.. hak hak hak... sebab F1 driver yang drive, kate cikgu nazli laa.. menmacam laa.. tp yang wat sangat menyentuh hati, apabila irene nak pindah balik ke KL, de sesorang yang berbisik pada irene.. ".. lepas neh saya just leh nampak laa bayangan kete merah tu lalu depan jalan tu.." hmmm...

hehehe.. ok lah. my 2nd pride and joy for today is, irene berjaya mendapatkan external tank utk printer irene. i know, mmg laa bersepah kat kl n pj neh... even i could get it from low yat, tp, kekangan masa!! hmm.. da bnyak kali hajat tertangguh, tp akhirnya, kali nih brjaya... hehehe.. so xde laa lepas neh irene asyik nak penin n panic biler de kijer nak kene submit, tp jenuh nak print x tau kat mane.. iskk.. nak print kat skola tu, lom tentu de printer yang molek.. or bukan printer yang prob, tp PC nyer!!!

third one, irene da dapat surat tindakan susulan dari pihak PERBENDAHARAAN NEGARA yang dihantar kepada pejabat peguam bg menyelesaikan pinjaman perumah irene. alhamdulillah and insya allah, kalo xde aral melintang, mulai bulan disember neh, irene akan wat potongan gaji utk rumah irene.. so bile da potongan gaji tu, da xyah laa irene wisau atu penin pala pk pasal rumah lewat bayar ke, bank nak tepon ke.. hmm.. for those yang pernah mengetahui masalah irene dulu, ini ialah masa yang selama ini irene idamkan.. ahehehe!!! bio berhutang ngan govt, dari berhutang ngan bank. kalo le umo irene x panjang, at least umah nih x tergadai.. my family leh just stay here, kan...

fourth one, berkenaan ngan utang gak, irene da berjaya mengterminatekan (ada kaa perkataan tu??) dua kad kredit irene yang selama nih menyesakkan jiwa.. akekekeke... utang da abes baya da kat kad tu, so xde sebab utk irene simpan agik.. g pun, dulu irene pakai kad tu sementara nak bernafas time adik irene maseh blaja.. tp skang neh adik irene da keje.. (keje gomen gak..) so mmg trase aa irene xperlukan kad kredit sebegitu berkeping2 lagi.. hmm.. tp td uncle irene cakap, "elehh.. skang ye laa ase xperlu.. nnt akan datang, apply plak kad laen.." hmm.. insya ALLAH, irene da congak, n katekan laa if i am still single, pendapatan bulanan irene maseh cukup utk digunakan tanpa perlu de kad kredit bebanyak. for info, skang nih irene hanya ada simpan satu jek.. tu pun sebab TESCO tu umh kedua irene.. akekekekeke...(err.. kate kalo belaki nnt, x yah la gak irene nk wisau cukup ke idak duwet, sebb yang pasti, mesti dier de nafkah yang pelu dihulur, ye x?? x kose irene nak nanggung laki free free de...)

ape lagik ekk.. banyak!!! tp yang selebehnyer tu, perkara yang private lah.. personal.. x seswai asenyer di hebahkan di cni. hikhik.. xpe.. koang leh nampak senyuman irene dalam mimpi koang... tp betolla cakap org tua.. xde penyakit, jgn carik penyakit.. bebaskan diri dari utang... n apabil utang da slesai, mmg sangat lege asenyer...

akekeke.. ok laaa.. irene log out dulu.. jumpa lagik laen kali...

agnes monica.. TERUSKANLAH..

Agnes Monica – Teruskanlah

Pernahkah kau bicara

Tapi tak di dengar

Tak di anggap

Sama sekali

Pernahkan kau tak salah

Tapi disalahkan

Tak di beri

Kesempatan

Reff :

Kuhidup dengan siapa

Ku tak tau kau siapa

Kau kekasihku tapi

Orang lain bagiku

Kau dengan dirimu saja

Kau dengan duniamu saja

Teruskan lah.. Teruskan lah

Kau begitu

Kau tak butuh diriku

Aku patung bagimu

Cinta bukan

Kebutuhan mu

Back to reff.

Hoo.. Hooo

Kau dengan dirimu saja

Kau dengan duniamu saja

Teruskan lah.. Teruskan lah

Kau.. kau begitu

Teruskan lah… teruskan lah..

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:)

Salam..

Suda lebey separuh bulan ibadah puasa ditempuhi. Alhamdulillah stakat neh segalanya berjalan lancar. Kenaikan rege petrol blom lg menimbulkan kesan pd diri irene. Tiada pengumuman bonus pula membuat irene tekesima memikirkan hari raya yg bakal tiba n adik irene pula nk start keje 16 sept neh. Hmm.. Bukan tahap penin lalat da neh, penin kumbang da..

Smlm g tmn kwn irene g ke 1U utk shopping. Irene just bebelek je, ye lah kan, da de urusan laen yg memerlukan belanja kewangan menanti. Irene just kene bersabar dulu. Tetibe ilang mood nk raya.. Hmm.. Tumpang happy n sesengih jek tgk ramai org shopping raya smlm. Kat padini, de satu famili tu shopping sampai lapan atus lebey, bj utk 2 org anak dia jek. Kat levi's plak, de soang akak tu slumber jek amik jeans sampai 4 pasang utk diri dia jek.. Sesengih jek irene tgk. Yelah, maybe dia bekemampuan n perubahan ekonomi ni tiada kesan pd dia kot..

Xlupa juga, ade dikalangan sahabat irene yg bersedih menyambut syawal nnt. My exroommate kat shah alam dulu, my dearest iza, ibu saudaranya yg membelanya sejak kecil telah meninggal dunia ketika rakyat malaysia berbangga menyambot ulangtahun kemerdekaan ke 52. Dan dijadikan kesah, pd 1 sept ialah ulangtahun kelahiran iza. I do believe, starting from now on, dia xkan bersukaria pd tarikh tersebut.. N kalo direnungkan smule, de byk kisah duka iza yg berlaku disekitar tarikh tersebut. Xperlu disebot disini.. Acuq, besabar ye..

Oh ye, ari ni ari ulangtahun kelahiran ke 39 fatah. Happy birthday awak! Hmm.. Wpun da dkt 2 thn awak membuang sy dr diri awak, tp sy ttp kenang perkara yg baik ttg diri awak n kebaikan awak pd sy. Moga awak bahagia n dimurahkan rezeki.

My bestest fren, ayeen, still at ipoh. Cian gak kat dia, mak dia xbape sehat. Jd skang neh dia blik ipoh teman mak dia sampai la mak dia de appoitment kat spital ipoh on 11 sept neh. Eh, btol ke tarikh tu? Hmm.. Pepehal, kami still behubung stiap masa sbb dia tau irene boring ble kengkawan jauh..

Angah plak ngah bz. Isk, bebulan pose pun kene g outstation. Cian angah.. Xdpt nk rehat. Kalo irene de power la kan, irene nk jek bg angah brehat, agar dia dpt bebuke di rumah ngan famili tesayang. Nk bebuke ngan kitwang pun dia xsempat agi.. Ari tu time besdey irene pun dia miss.. Ngah, nnt kite set satu date ek!

Dearest syifa n sis, hmm penatkan kite jalan smlm. Hehe.. Tp pueh ati tgk koang dpt carik pe yg koang nk. Aku kene sabar dulu. Tggu surat posting adik aku dulu.. Hmm.. Skang aku kat dlm bilik sengsoang.. Xde mood nk turun bwh.. Hmm ntah la.. Aku senyum jek tgk owang, tp aku xtau pe yg aku ase skang.. Pedih, keliru, risau, tertanya2, sme de..

De satu lg yg wat irene pedih n terluka.. Abah. Nape? Xpe lah.. Xnk cte cni.. Nnt jd anak derhaka.. Tp irene mohon sgt pd Allah, teguh n kuatkanlah semangat irene, utk adik irene..

Take care!

doploh satu pistol ke.. senapang ke.. senjata ke... hari ijo...

salam..

have heard this song many times.. my friend had introduced this song to me when we were driving to somewhere.. MALACCA i guess.. or somewhere else.. but not in my baby, in hers...

she said this song is in REVENGE OF THE FALLEN SOUNDTRACK, but i couldnt recall of it.. i dont really pay attention for ost.. hahaha.. bz lately, havent been listening to songs much..

but really touch my heart.. the melody.. and the lyric.. ahehehe.. check it out!!!



Do you know what's worth fighting for?
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?

Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul

Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone?

When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

KARAOKE DI BULAN PUASA..

salam....

hehe...rancangan yang tergese-gese.. actually, dua tige malam lepas de le kawan irene neh bersmebang kat fb.. hehehe pesal percintaan n persahabatan.. ahehe.. memul irene nyampok gak laa tp lelame, ate.. letey le.. jd irene memerhati sahajalah perbualan itu.. then bile da berlarutan ke tengah lama, irene pun just hibernate my lappy, then.. zzzzz..

rupe rupenyer depe wat rancangan utk berjumpe.. di KL... memandangkan kami nih banyak d KL, makan tuan punya badan di JB neh, ingin le turun ke KL untuk membeli barangan utk perkahwinannya december ini.. hukhuk.. nak jumpe siang xbest, sebab xleh nak lepak memenom and ketawa lupa daratan.. maka, mereke pon decide jumpe malam.. hehe.. tup tup.. pg semalam irene dapat sms... "rin, malam nih free x? kite jumpe ini malam...." errr...

nak dijadikan citer, semalam pon irene xleh online, sebab de hal sket, maka, irene pun agree laaa untuk bertemu.. di mana?? RED BOX SOGO.. huhu... karaoke di bulan puasa? bio benorrr!!! tp rational nya ialah, bialah kitr bertemu di private room, dari menjadi buah mata org tgk lepak kat kedai makan sampai ke tengah malam.. haaa ok..



maka inilah kami... miesha n tunangnya, ABI, Shidee, Irene, Yazleen aka MAYMOT and suaminya, Khairul.. setelah lapan tahun x jumpe miesha.. CD irene penah jumpe maser wedding maymot, n maymot plak last irene jumpe maser dier dalam pantang anak sulong 3 tahun lepas...

happy sangat ase dapat jumpe.. ye lah, name jek kat kl, umah pun leh aa stakat nak carik.. CD kat bukit antarabangsa, irene dkt nganm sepital ampang, memot plak dekat ngan skola irene, tp, x pernah terfikir utk berkumpul... neway, tq miesha sebab mencetuskan segalanya..

dulu, maser kat PPP/ITM dulu, miesha adalah rakat duet maymot.. soang alicia key, soang g whiteny houston.. miahahaha.. so biler karok semalam, mmg teringat laa zaman depe wat persembahan kat dewan besau PPP tu.. iskk.. nostalgia betoll.. tp, sme nyer jadik sweet memory kitwang.. for info, dulu irene x nyanyi.. maklum le, ade ramai lagi yang lebey berbakat... tp irene adalah stage manager.. n technical controller kat blakang pentas.. ngan my crime partner, angah..

well guys, no more words to explain... just upload sket jek gambo kat cni.. irene x bawak kamere ler semalam.. but nih de aa sket dari my phone camera.. well, tq guys.. kenangan di bulan pose tol!!! ape le tebiat aku g karok bulan pose neh...

again.. love u all!!!

EVERGREEN FAVOURITE!!

salam...

pepagi irene da layan you tube carik lagu2 zaman irene memude dulu.. sajek jek.. my sis kua g lepak ngan kawan dier, so irene layan aa ne sengsoang.. since sme rang kijer kan.. so, check this out!!

KAIN CINTA PUTIH - PUTRA



Ku jalan sendiri tiada tempat
Untuk menanti
Tiada mu aku menyepi
Bayanganmu aku mencari...

Ku sangkakan hujan
Tapi taufan datang melanda
Ku mencari tanpa pegangan
Dan tersungkur di ketepian

Kain putih yang kuberi padamu
Kini pudar warna-warnanya
Kuselimut di atas ikal rambutmu
Kian jatuh terus cecah ke bahu...

Ku mencari bayangmu tiada
Di langit biru di lautan api
Kau hilang dan semakin jauh
Hujung dunia kita berjumpa

Bila ku lihat kau dihancur
Bagaikan luruh bunga yang gugur

Kusunting dirimu
Kan kugenggam hatimu itu
Kan kujaga wahai bungaku
Kau kan tumbuh subur mewangi

Kau mekarlah wahai mu bunga
Subur menguntum ditaman hati
Kau hilang dan semakin jauh
hujung dunia kita berjumpa

SEJATI - WINGS



Sejati
Itu yang kau ucapkan
Bila janji kugenggam
Bawah pohon kemboja
Yang sekecil kita

Menanti
Di mahligai mainan
Kita bina bersama
Dari dahan yang rapuh

Usia perangkap kita
Remaja kita tinggalkan
Namun aku masih
Menggenggam janji

Tinggal kenangan
Gagal segala impian
Tinggal bertanya
Erti sejati

Kenangan itu
Hanya mainan bagimu
Tinggal bertanya
Erti sejati
Yang telah engkau janjikan dulu


RENDANG TAK BERBUAH - HATTAN



Sunyi dan gelap
Terlantar dalam telanjang
Di pintu rindu
Hidup dan matiku disisimu

Sakit yang datang
Menguji kasih dan sayang
Antara merenda semalam
Mungkin takkan berbuah

Hanya memadukan
Namun tidak mengenyangkan
Musafir lalu nan dahaga
Di jalan panas membara

Begitulah hakikatnya
Di mahligai kesakitan
Yang mengundang sahabat
Saudara jauh dekat
Menghembus nafas pilu

Ibu mengertilah
Aku sengsara
Lemas berendam airmata
Rendang kasihmu
Dalam gelora
Jadi rebutan selamanya

Berikanlah pengertian
Waktuku di hujung jalan
Berbicara bahasa duka
Tanda penyesalan

Manapun aku berlabuh
Pastinya untuk desamu
Biarpun tak bersubur
Biarlah tak tertangguh
Di telapak kakimu
Sakit kurasakan
Jadi peneman
Masa semalam yang silam

LAMUNAN TERHENTI - ARIS ARIWATAN



Entah mengapakah hatiku bergetaran
Bila bertemu lagi oh! kekasih lama
Ku cuba selindungkan api keresahan
Namun perasaan ini berapi di dalam

Ku kira angkau sudah melupakan
Kerna itulah engkau nampak tenang
Lainlah aku walau ketika ini
Masih membara ingatanku terhadapmu

Ku singkap kenangan dulu
Sewaktu kasih berputik
Kugenggam erat tanganmu
Kau tunduk sembunyikan wajah
Namun dapat aku meneka hatimu
Sehati denganku

Lalu kau mendongak berbalas renungan
Dan dengan perlahan tangan kau lepaskan
Kau pun berlalu dalam kepekatan malam
Tinggal aku seorang

Terhenti lamunan bila ku dikejutkan
Engkau dipimpin pergi oleh seseorang
Dalam keterpaksaan kau melangkah kaki (pergi)
Namun sempat jua kau menoleh ku disini

PENANTIAN -BLACKROSE



Dikamar ku menyepi
Hanya lilin menerangi
Beginikah seksanya
Hidup dalam penantian
Ditabir tirai malam
Ada insan kesepian, keseorangan...

Dan setiap detik yang ku lalui
Seluruh malam ku membisu
Tetap setia menantimu
Bayanganmu entah di mana

Mengapa harus kita ditemukan
Di saat jiwaku keresahan
Apakah aku satu persinggahan
Mengubat rindu... oh...

Kau dahagakan...
Ku kehausan...
Setitis rasa
Pada bayangan yang tak pasti... oh...

Kau nyalakan perasaan
Mengukir kemesraan
Mungkinkah ada sinar
Bersama impianku

Dah telah ku duga
Suasana keindahan seketika
Aku tetap menanti mu

Kau dahagakan...
Ku kehausan...
Setitik rasa... oh...
Aku tenggelam...
Kehampaan...
Keseorangan...

Mana sinaran ?...
Terangilah hidupku
Tak sanggup lagi... aku... sepi

Summary..

Salam..

hari nih, senin, cuti skola.. hehe.. tp irene baru balik dari skola... hahaha.. mai standby utk peperiksaan PTK.. skola irene jadik pusat peperiksaan. so memandangakan irene neh penolong setiausaha peperiksaan SPM, so, irene standby le, sebab S/U pepriksaan dalaman skola irene plak ngan on medical leave sebab operation. my lead pulak still in honeymoon mood, so xmau mai skola.. ye laa.. org dah kawen.. (sendrik mau ingat laa situasi tu..)

hmm.. last saturday was my birthday.. ke 30. da x mude lagi da.. hahahaha.. like my fren said, da masuk 3 series.. x kesah laa.. so, i received a lot of smses.. wishing me happy birthday.. as well as on facebook.. bertalu2.. neway, maceh guys.. really appreciate them! cam best jek ase sebab da laa ka fb neh dapat kontek balik kengkawan lama yang da lost contact.. iskkk.. terharu lah!!

so, on that saturday, my pet sis banje irene g layan movie. irene nak sangat tgk UP, 3D version.. ase cam chomei jek cite tu.. sebab maser ICE AGE 3 tu da tgk trailer dier dalam 3D version.. so, hasrat irene di tunaikan.. pas2 jenjalan laa kat dalam sunway tu, terjumpe la plak few of my exstudents SMKTDH.. iskk.. da besau.. n hensem da.. almost x kinai.. ye laa.. dulu pakai uniform skola.. nih pakai bj biase.. tp diorang yang tego dulu.. "eh teacher laa.." then kami lepak tepi eskelator sesembang jab.. hehehe.. cam besh jek!!

pas2 my pet sis ajak masuk jusco.. sajek jenjalan.. pas2 sampai kat electrical goods, kami terpandang de satu set steamboat and bbq cooker.. alaaa.. macam kat BBQ LAND tu.. tp, idok le pakai kuali bege cam kat sane.. nih senonoh sket laa repenyer ye..dier tulis kat c2, rege nyer rm188. so akak irene neh mmg da lama nak li, sebab dier ske mamam steamboat..(irene pun ske gak.. slalu ajak dier g mam jhonny's..) so, dier kate, nak li lah.. nnt leh ajak kengkawan laen mai umah dier celebrate birthday irene mam steamboat lepas gaji neh.. HOYEEHHH!!!! skalik nak bayar, upenyer de diskaun agik.. jd rm168!! waahh.. bestnyer!!!!!

then, kami pun nak balik.. ye aa kan, first pose, mesti lah nak berbuke ngan family kan.. so sebelom balik, irene tanyer adik irene, barang pe xde kat dapoq.. then irene kabo ler nak masak siakap besau tu.. dier suh le li bawang, sos plum, cili dsb.. hehehe.. irene happy ngat!! my birthday, irene nak masak nak jamu my family makan... iskk.. da terbayang da mesti best buke kali neh..

so irene singgah tesco, li pe yang patut... skali nak baya, iskk.. upenyer my tesco card tertinggal kat handbag lagi satu, same goes my credit cards.. ye laa.. bukan niat nak shopping kan, so xde laa bawak.. so irene li aa menggunakan sisa cash yang de lam wallet..

sampai jek umah, gelap. xde owang.. masuk, tgk, kosong. iskk.. p mane doang.. then kol my sis.. dier dari low yat da nak balik umah.. ok laa.. tgk kat kosi, oh... my sister in law's handbag still there,.. so i guessed my bro n my sis in law g pasar ramadhan kot.. so, irene pun kuakan siakap, n siang.. buang sisik dier.. terbang sisik dier satu dapor tuu.. hahahaha... berjaya!! clean da siapkap aku.. tersenyum lebar irene!!!

then, kuakan sayur nak wat sup.. hmm.. skalik my sis sampai... my sis terus cakap..banyak nyer ko kuakan.. mane de org.. kite dua orang jek. irene tersentap.. abang ngan zura maner? laaa.. doangkan balik kg malam td.. irene terdiam.. hmm.. x de sape cakap pon...

ntah nape, irene ase sakit ati sangat...irene simpan sme tu balik dalam peti, n irene baling ikan tu masuk dalam peti.. for info, maser nak siang ikan tu, jari irene trsangkot pada satu duri, n berdarah.. sakit.. dalam luka tu.. tp irene tahan n teruskan siang ikan tu, sebab irene ingat g.. akak ipar irene cakap, dier nak ikan tu goreng sweet sour.. irene mmg nak masak sweet sour sebab dier kate ari tu dier makan kat opis.. sedap.. tp dapat makan sket jek.. so irene de cakap, nnt first poser kite masak ikan ni ekk.. sebab meriah sket buke pose makan lauk sedap..so, biler teringat kan tu, irene then lari naik atas n memrap dalam bilik... irene nanges sebab x leh nak luah ase sakit hati...

nak tau nape sakit ati???

ok. mmg irene dapat manyak wish birthday dari orang.. dari my friends, my auntie, CIKBY, my sister EPI, my cousins, TESL friends, my students, my FB friends, BUT not from my FATHER, yang dok kat jalan atas tu, n my BRO, yang slama neh kalo nak balik kg, dier akan bgtau dua tige hari awal yang dier nak balik kg... hmm kecik ati sgt tau.. my own family members x hengat it was my birhday.. irene x mintak doang celebrate my birthday ke, give me presents ke, just one short sms or wish.. tu jek tande irene tau depe ingat my day.. tp, mmm..

mmg irene cedey.. n irene up kan kat status FB irene.. x tau nak luah cam ne.. skalik my sis pon kol her fren, and her fren came with a small tiramisu cake.. lg wat irene nanges. adik irene yang penganggur terhormat tu, pinjam duit kawan dier li kek sebab tgk irene da cedey.. she tried to make me happy biler tgk irene da nanges.. irene cakap kat dier tq.. irene bukan nak suh dier li cake.. but actually i was waiting for my father n bro to sms or kol me...

after having the cake.. irene naik balik dalam bilik.. layan fb lagik.. tetibe my sis panggey.. kate abah mai.. irene pun turun, n he wished me happy birthday. i put a little smile on my face.. my father came after trawehh.. why a litlle smile? sebab actually my father da salah date. nak tau pesal irene cakap g2? well, last month was my step sis, WIDAT's birthday.. so, he mistakenly kol me, n wished me birthday.. then biler irene cakap abah, besdey adik bulan lapan, bukan bulan tujuh, dier kate, alamak, salah kol laaa.. actually nak kol widat. imagine that. time dier salah kol tu, dier kol pagi.. so, bayangkan ape irene ase, biler dier hanya ingat nak wish me after teraweh...

until catatan ini ditulis, my bro still xde wish me belated.. even semalam dier da sampai dari kg, irene jumpe dier sesengehh kt ruang tamu tu...

TELL ME... HOW SHOULD I FEEL???

NOTES: tq friends for trying to cheer me up.. tp, kengkawan x sama macam family... i guess, u all understand kan...

AKU BUKAN SUPERMAN - THE LUCKY LAKI

AKU BUKAN SUPERMAN - THE LUCKY LAKI

Aku bukanlah Superman
Aku juga bisa nangis
Jika kekasih hatiku
Pergi meninggalkan aku

Ayahku selalu berkata padaku
Laki-laki tak boleh nangis
Harus s’lalu kuat, harus s’lalu tangguh
Harus bisa jadi tahan banting

Tapi ternyata sakitnya cinta
Buat aku menangis

Aku bukanlah Superman
Aku juga bisa nangis
Jika kekasih hatiku
Pergi meninggalkan aku

Ayahku selalu memarahi aku
Jika jatuh air mataku
Kata ayah s’lalu air mata itu
“Adalah tanda kelemahan”
Tapi ternyata air mataku
Ternyata jatuh juga

Aku bukanlah Superman
Aku juga bisa nangis
Jika kekasih hatiku
Pergi meninggalkan aku

Ayahku tersayang (ayah), maafkanlah aku (maafkan aku)
Jika aku masih menangis (masih nangis)
Masih belum bisa (belum bisa), menjadi seperti (jadi seperti)
Apa yang ayah s’lalu mau (apa yang mau)
Kita berjanji tuk tidak lagi
Menangis karna cinta

Aku bukanlah Superman
Aku juga bisa nangis
Jika kekasih hatiku
Pergi meninggalkan aku

Aku bukanlah Superman (bukan Superman)
Aku juga bisa nangis (juga bisa nangis)
Jika kekasih hatiku
Pergi meninggalkan aku [2x]

Sabtu yg bekerja..

Salam.. Bosan...

Da la sabtu, ari ni kene kijer..
Tetibe de meeting plak..
Irene nk naik g melaka neh.. Huarrgghh...

Pot luck!!

Salam..

Ari ni last guru praktikum dr unitar mengajar. So td kami wat pot luck..

Irene wat kuah spagheti. Ahek! Guna sos traditional preego tu, then campak ayam kisar, tomato kiub, bwg kuning, carrot, button mushroom and capsicum.. Hahaha.. Tambah oregano sket, yummy!

N nk dijadikan cte, td de bdk kene gangguan lg.. Actually bebdak ni da dkt 2mggu direhatkan. Tp sbb next week trial pmr, so doang dtg la. Tp gni plak jdnye.. Ntah la pe naseb plaja ni..

Hmm ok la.. Irene xnk bebel panjang. Nk sambung wat kije. Nnt coret lg ek.. Tata!!

Hush Hush..

salam..

a friend of mine suke lagu nih. iskk.. xtau pesal.. idok le plak teman ni bertanyer.. tok koser neman nih nak wat g2.. nyebok jek plak ekk..

hmm.. idok le de mende menarik teman nak kabor kan.. teman sengsoang jek kat ghumah neh.. adek teman kluor.. abang ngan akok ipor teman pun lom balik lagik dari telok intan.. boring sunggoh sunggoh lerr..

ok laa.. neman nak uplod lirik lagu yang kawan teman suker neh.. hmm.. cam tempias sket le kat teman.. untuk seseorang yang penah hadir dalam idop teman.. aheheh

ok lah.. ENJOY!!

Hush Hush lyrics
Songwriters: Larossi, J; Romdhane, A; Scherzinger, N; Wroldsen, I;

I never needed you to be strong
I never needed you for pointing out my wrongs
I never needed pain, I never needed strain
My love for you is strong enough you should have known

I never needed you for judgment
I never needed you to question what I spent
I never ask for help, I take care of myself
I don't why you think you got a hold on me

And it's a little late for conversations
There isn't anything for you to say
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver
So look at me and listen to me because

I don't want to stay another minute
I don't want you to say a single word
Hush hush, hush hush, there is no other way
I get the final say because

I don't want to do this any longer
I don't want you, there's nothing left to say
Hush hush, hush hush, I've already spoken
Our love is broken, baby, hush hush

I never needed your corrections
On everything from how I act to what I say
I never needed words, I never needed hurts
I never needed you to be there everyday

I'm sorry for the way I let go
From everything I wanted when you came along
But I am never beaten, broken not defeated
I know next to you is not where I belong

And it's a little late for explanations
There isn't anything that you can do
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver
So you will listen when I say, baby

I don't want to stay another minute
I don't want you to say a single word
Hush hush, hush hush, there is no other way
I get the final say because

I don't want to do this any longer
I don't want you, there's nothing left to say
Hush hush, hush hush, I've already spoken
Our love is broken, baby, hush hush

No more words, no more lies
No more crying
No more pain, no more hurt
No more trying because

I don't want to stay another minute
I don't want you to say a single word
Hush hush, hush hush, there is no other way
I get the final say because

I don't want to do this any longer
I don't want you, there's nothing left to say
Hush hush, hush hush, I've already spoken
Our love is broken, baby hush hush

Hush hush, hush hush, I've already spoken
Our love is broken, baby..

Hahaha.. Totally flat!

Salam..

Irene br sampai umah dr skola. Td g pd nek bas rombongan skola pamili day. Xlarat nk konvoi sbb dmm.. Selsema, batuk siap sempot lg..

Alhamdulillah segalanye slesai wpun de sdikit kekalutan td. Haha.. Ngan game, sukaneka, terhibur tgk smenye. Mkn rosel n panadol pg td, de daya sket nk berxtvt. Tp halfway jek, then tarik diri dr group. Sempot lah..

Baring gak td. Mcm xpduli jek pengetua ngan husband dia de skali.. Da xpk segan da. Sbb da xlarat ngat td. Tp ble dgr pekik lolong doang tu, bgn gak g tgk.. Nk tau btapa lembik nya irene td, sampai kan my gpk koku, pn saidatol pun tego "hafi, u look so diff today. So quiet. Slalu u yg paling bising." haa.. Tu la pasal.. Mmg dmm baeknye..

Ok la.. Nk sign off.. Xlarat layan mobile net.. Take care all.. Tata..

Haru biru..

Salam..

Ari ni keadaan makin teruk n xtekawal. Lebey dr sploh pljr smktdh dijangkiti histeria. Nauzubillah..

Penat juga. Irene ni actually bukan la brani ngat nk tolong. Ilmu pun kosong di dada. Tp td irene kuatkan smgt gak la membantu stakat yang mampu..

Xmampu lah irene nk cte kat cni. Yg berada di smktdh td tau lah. Biarlah dia berakhir di c2 jek..

Doakan keadaan smakin pulih ye.. Dan moga kami semua dilindungiNYA

Gangguan..

Salam..

After few days, it happens again. This time, only 3 students get infected. One is located in councelling room, one in surau, and another one in staff room..

The dukun had been called and came. I walk out of the room. Gosh.. She screams slightly and fights back. Now i am at the hall, monitoring the f5 students participating in english grammar workshop..

At the same time, there is an oral xm for spm private candidates running at my school. Huh, i was running here and there for the final touch up. No entry signboard, arrows to the xm hall, plain papers for the examiners..

Ok la.. Feels restless.. Want to concentrate on the workshop. Tata..


p/s: camping and larian hari olimpik report later, k!

To the drain..

The voice has spoken..

All efforts since 2003 are useless.. Think back, hell yeah!

Just thinking bout millions of wasted RM. Thatk god it is not my money.. The taxpayers money. I am just a ringgit or two contributor..

But feel pity with the kids. They are the direct victims. Teachers are in another catagory. Who cares if the teachers are mentally challanged or what.. Teachers are paid for it, rite.. That is what ppl always say..

Another minister, another policy, another change. For better or worse, let's god shows it.. (not asking the students, teachers or xm results to prove it.. Kun faya kun.. If god let it, it will. If not, amik la korner kok mane pun, nothing would be better.. )

salam..

Huhu.. Argghhhh!

Huhu.. Start pukul 9 lebey td.. 2 org bdk f3 diganggu makhluk halus..

Pas2 da lps rehat pukul 10.15 td, soang g bdk f3 kene ganggu gak.. Kat kelas. Menjerit dia time utz tu cube nk pulihkan..

Then da nk balik, soang g kene.. Da dibw ke pjbt nk asingkan, tp xleh. Kene bwk ke bilik kaunseling gak sbb utz tu nk pulihkan kat c2.. Pjbt sempit. Bilik kaunseling besau sket..

Then pukul satu stengah, de soang g hampir kene gak, tp dpt dipulihkan. Disuruh balik..

Tp sehingga irene nk blik td pukul 2.30, budak ke empat tu masih lg terjerit2 kat dlm bilik kaunseling tu.. Hmm heharap dpt dipulihkan..

Nk msg wadi la jab g.. Nk tau camne.. Bye!

Another episode of the day..

Salam..

Ari ni xde mende best blaku.. Just ari ni pose reramai kat umah ni.. Me, my sis in law n my aunt. And interestingly, my sis had arrived from btn course in melaka, and she will be joining us tomorrow..

Hmm.. Bz a bit today. Tp paling geram ble tumit kasut leh patah td. Hmm sebbaek de kasut spare td..

Huhu.. Ok la nantok. Td buke mam fish n chip kat lrt corner kat pandan indah. Pas2 da tapau nasik grg usa utk sahur sok. Akak ipar irene masak spaghetti carbonara td. Aiyak, my fav, tp irene da janji ngan ayeen nk buke kat lua..

Huhu.. Ok la fren, looking fwd for 2mrw. Special event? Ntah..

Nite nite..

p/s: to a fren of mine, just wanna u to know, me n our fren will alwitz be here with u.. Love u, twin!

Ice Age 3 3D Version

Salam all..

Mlm td kalo ikotkan nk jek tdo awal.. Tp my bro sampai dr pd ptg smlm.. Xtarik nafas pe terus tanye.. Nk tgk ice age x?

At first irene kate malas sbb penat reronda pg td.. Hmm mmg dr ptg pun asyik telelap jek. Tp sbb my bro ajak sme, isk wugi plak kalo xjoin. Hmm.. Ikot skali lah!

He bought six tickets. Sonok bebdak 3 org tu. The movie was at 11.10 at midvalley..

It was hilarious! Seriously! Start with the excited manny preparing a playground for its future baby. Elie is pregnant! And diego is touched by that, and decides to go off without the herd. So sid wants to join him but rejected. Hahaha..

Sid also wants to start his own family, but pity him. Ye lah dia mane de partner kan. So he walks on the ice and suddenly the ice cracks, and woosshh! Falls into the ice!

Down there sid finds 3 huge eggs. Dinosours of course. So he steals the eggs and draws faces on the eggs to claim their his. Hahaha.. Stupid drawing! He brings those eggs to the herd and gets scolded by manny. Er.. Kene pulang balik!

But sid doesnt return the eggs. He hides them somewhere then the eggs hatch. And the baby dinos call him mama! Hahaha..

Sid takes them to the playgroud manny build for his baby. When the other kids know the playgroud is opened, they rush in lah. Abes osak.. When manny found out, dia cedey ngat n again asks sid to bring baby dino somewhere else..

And then mother dino comes to get the babies. And takes sid away too.. Then manny and the geng have to go to the dinos world to get sid back..

Ok. Till that my review. If wanna know bout their adventure to rescue sid, u have to watch it on your own. Gpun xbest la kalo irene cte sampai abeh kan?..

Ok.. Take care.. Ari ni nk wat mende laen plak... Tggu!!

Selamat berhujung mggu!

Whiteboard marker from PILOT

Salam.

Last week, irene ngomel pasal kelecehan mengrefill whiteboard marker kat skola neh. Since ekonomi gawat neh, panitia da xleh li refill.. Diarahkan utk refill di pjbt. Malangnye, stok yg de kat pjbt tu xmampu nk stock up marker cikgu seramai 150 guru pg n ptg.. Da la mmg sme guru pakai marker kan..

Nk dijadikan cte, de gak geguru yg li sendrik. Tp sebotol kecik tu leh refill paling byk 4 x. Lom campur tumpah keluar lg.. So, sekali dua mampu la cikgu nk li sendrik. Sebotol refill tu tahan stengah bulan.. So lama kelamaan, ramai cikgu mrungut.. For info, sebotol kecik tu paling murah rm5.50.

Mmg de jual botol besau. Lebey sratus hengget sebotol. Tp xtau kat ne. Hanya melalui pembekal. Xde kat bookshop.

One day, de soang cikgu ni.. Tunjuk satu set marker. Eh cantik la kaler dia kat board. N the best part is, the marker comes with refill. Dia kate dia li kat popular. Rm10 for 3 colours. So, ok, since i am out of my artline refill.

I went to popular that evening. Looking for one. And found it. Aheh. I bought 2 sets as one ustazah asked me to get her one. Aheh! Since that, i sengeh all the time, coz my stdnts xbising lg da dlm kelas marker kale klabu ek pudar..

N one more thing yg wat irene fall in love ngan PILOT whiteboard marker ni ialah, de refill utk menmacam kaler.. Itam, biru, merah, oren, ijau, ungu and brown! Hahaha.. Makcik suko! Sonok asenye wat latihan n discussion ngan student bile guna memacam kaler kat whiteboard. Students pun irene arahkan li pen menmacam kale utk wat notes. Hehe..

Oh ye, refill dia bg irene ok lah rege.. Rm2 jek.. Hehe.. Best! Affordable. Xchomot nk refill. Buka n pasang jek. Mcm catridge printer!

Asenye mende ni da lama de kat market, tp irene br jek tau. Hmm ok lah.. Nk sambung wat keje.. Nk upload pic, tp irene xreti.. Ok la.. Gegege.. Bye!

Jiwa Kacau

Salam..

Irene slalu dgr my students use this term, "jiwa kacau".. Kene plak lepas deliver result trial ari tu. Makin kerap plak dgr time nk adakan hari terbuka, nk amik report kad. Tu sbb makin jiwa kacau.. Isk.. Takot kene bebel la tu..

So nk dijadikan cte, weekend ni bdk f5 kene bermalam kat skola. Kem bina insan utk pelajar spm. F o c sbb da dicover oleh pibg. Hmm.. Beruntung budak skang.. Dulu sme kene baya..

Doang kate jiwa kacau sbb kene tdo skola. Ye lah mane slese mcm kat umah sendrik kan. Hmm de yg bgtau xnk dtg skola sok.. So, xyah lapor diri utk kem lepas solat jumaat tu.. Isk ngarot tul la bebdak ne..

Td kat kelas form 3, de soang bdk lelaki majok ngan kwn sebelah meje dia, pompuan plak tu.... Haa.. Tu g soang jiwa kacau.. Tp ntah nape, asenye mcm xpatut plak nk layan dia majok.. Xpatut kan, makin naik minyak plak dia dlm kelas..

Ok lah. Nk prepare namelist utk larian hari merdeka 12 julai ni kat dataran. So far, satu bas gak la yg nk join.. Haa yg tu wat irene jiwa kacau gak.. Ingat senang ke nk handle bdk kat public event cam tu..

The Feeling Deep Inside..

Salam..

Ari ni irene xg keje. Just sit n stay at my hidden place. Xde mood nk wat pe2 pun. Something burden my mind. Well i know xde kene mengene myself, tp i am part of the famili.

Xnk la cte pnjg. Kat facebook nye status pjg da tulis.. Just nk ilangkan bengkak dlm ati.

Woman, y r u 2 soft in forgiving the devil? And damn man, u r the hatred of my life! Ya Allah, mmg aku memohon pdmu, tunjukkanlah kebenaran pd insan2 ini, dan lindungkan lah wanita ini dr aib dan sengsara..

Woman, i just want to u move a level. Step out of the box. Dont torture urself anymore. If u said it is for the kids sake, that is what u should do. Ade papa ke x slama ni pun, dia xpenah kisah bout the kids future. Dia xpenah nk tanye pun their progress.. Cedey tau adik tgk the kids.. Doang tu mmg da adik anggap my own brothers. Adik xnk doang jd mangsa..

Woman, even ur youngest son pun tau ur suffer. He even asked me last nite y ur balik umah smlm.. Dia sendri decide xnk blik..

Woman, i write here coz i dunno how to talk bout this to u.. I know this will never pop out from my mouth to u.. Just wish in my prayer, that u will find the real truth soon..

Sorry woman, this is too hard for me to face.. As i love u. U r my 2nd mother, after my late mum. I hate ur tears, u know..

NAK KATE PE EK?

salam..

Ari ni cam bese le.. Assembly. Ye lah ari senin kan..

Mggu lps irene guru betugas. Ngan soang cikgu pompuan neh.. So nk dijadikan crite, cikgu pompuan ni takot mic.. So everyday, announcement irene yg buat.

Mende lain sme wat gegilir.. Amik attendance, kebersihan. Isk.. Xpe la..

Tp yg xbley blah, pg ni nye assembly leh plak minah tu xnk berucap wat laporan mggu lepas. Org laen, kalo da wat pengumuman harian, laporan will be done by the partner.

Hmm.. Ini suda bikin gua hangen!

2nd HALF OF THE 2009

Salam..

Ahek! Ari ni td skola ganti.. Should the parents come to get their children's xm result. But come to my surprise, not many of them turned up..

2009 irene da xpgg kelas sbb irene in charge utk prog guru. So 5BA tu da serah pd guru laen. Tp irene jd guru kelas kedua. Ye lah, cikgu yg dpt kelas tu skang, cikgu pj pompuan, so xjumpe n knal bdk lelaki. Subjek pj pun smggu skali jek kan. At least irene masuk kelas tu 3x smggu.. N da ngaja doang since doang form 4.

So, only 5 parents turned up. But funny thing was, out of that 5 parents, yg anak dia dtg ke skola td, hanya soang. Lg 4 parents tu anak dia xdtg. But when i asked where are the kids, doang kate kat umah, tdo. Ok la.. At least xde la kua dr umah kate g skola, tp xsampai ke skola.

But i was touched by the hopes brought by the parents. Yg jumpe irene td, not come from high income parents. Mainly kije kilang. They hope the kids results were fantastic, as it was first spm trial. But turned out many failures. There was once a father cried in front of me coz his son had only able to pass 3 papers without distinction. The father expect his son would show some good grades this time, tp tgk byk G plak.. I was touched.

The father said, "cikgu, ade apa yg leh sy lakukan? Sy xmampu nk anta tusyen baya kat lua. Mahal. Sy kje kilang. Mak dia plak da setahun sakit. Dia ni anak sulung. De 3 lg adik.." irene tediam, sbb bkn nk ngata, tp anak dia mmg xcemerlang.

Just td irene ckp, mintak monitor dia blaja kat umah. Just beli buku model kertas spm, n drilling sendiri kat rumah. De lg lebey kuang 4 bulan sblm spm. Masih bley wat ulangkaji n latih tubi. Antara nk ngan xnk jek.

N td de gak parents yg ngadu, kat umah anak dia xnk blaja. Asyik nk ke cc xpun ke pdg men bola.. Xmo blaja kat umah. Pun irene xreti nk suggest pe.. Sbb even kat skola pun teguran guru dia xhirau, apatah lagi teguran ibu bapa kat umah. Kalo ikotkan teguran ibu bapa lg power dr teguran guru kan..

Pe2hal pun, irene just harap this 2nd half would bring a change to them. Xbest la kalo airmata bapa td jd air mata sesia.. kan..

Ok la.. Nk layan cerekarama.. Love u all.. As'kum..

Lama da kan..

Salam all..
Lama irene xonline. Bkn sombong, tp waktu n keadaan xmengizinkan.
Bz? Isk.. Xla mcm pm. Tp mmg bz. Bukan irene soang pk g2, tp guru laen pun. Hmm.. Prog guru byk. LDP.. latihan dlm perkhidmatan. Beberapa kali sabtu n weekdays lps skola da wat ldp tu. Syarat wajib kementrian pendidikan utk pekembangan guru.. (mcm xcukup kembang jek irene neh..) hmm.. Sampaikan irene prasan, kelas tambahan f3 n f5 pun, xde serancak tahun lps..
Xlupe gak, byk x sabtu jd skola ganti. Hmm sbb raya. Ari2 ganti raya cine, then raya pose n sok ganti dipavali. Uik.. Sekejap jek da dkt nk ujung tahun..

Actually irene ngah pk, sempat x irene nk make sure bebdak irene cukup ready nk xm. Ye lah, xde pluang nk wat kelas tambahan. Kalo ikot waktu biasa mane cukup.. Tahun sblm ni de byk masa nk wat kelas tambahan. Tp tahun ni penuh ngan mesyuarat n kursus..

Cian gak tgk bebdak ni g ikot kelas tusyen bebayar kat lua.. Bukannya murah..

Hmm.. Just pray, they will perform well.. Esok hari terbuka. Parents akan dtg ke skola utk amik result anak. Elok gak.. Tp xsure ramai ke x yg dtg sok, kan..

K lah.. Nk tdo.. Bye..

salam...



irene sitill x sehat agik, so tdo awal.. jadik maksudnyer mangun awal la gaks... okeh.. i was awaken at 2.15 am... so layan aa isya' yang irene leh plak terlelap plak td...

huhu.. ari nih nak g pusat MUET.. uhuks... cam ne ekk.. still x bape larat nak drive.. kalo nak diikotkan, asal masuk kete jek penin.. iskk.. td g keje g ngan zura.. balik td abah jemput... kebetulan ptg td khai datang umah, soh dier jek g tapaukan lunch yang da lewat tu.. tu pun just de slere kat megi goreng ayam.. tp yang kt bistro tu xsedap laa.. kat umah ayeen tu dap.. then td nak g baya maxis, ajak abang.. iskk.. cam ne laa nak drive kui 6.30 kang..

td kawan irene sms.. dier tego.."yang, apsal lately nih ko asyik sakit jek?" hmm.. ha ah ekk.. ikotkan track irene tahun 2009 neh, every month irene de mc.. demam lah, sakit mata le, demam panas laa.. what is wrong ek? irene pun xtau.. tahap kesihatan irene mundur gegile!!!

hmm.. tapi one thing yang irene prasan, irene mmg x aktif macam dulu.. ntah le.. xde xtvt yang bebtul menarik minat irene kot... hmm.. xtvt skola? kat skola irene skang nih, irene da x aktif da dalam persatuan. irene da x join pandu puteri. irene masok kadet polis. kat cni pandu puteri, terdiri dari anak dara india, n doang nih lebey ske nak dgr arahan dari guru bangsa mereka..xmo ngan irene. so, nak gerakkan pon cam susah.. banyak alasan laa.. hmm.. kadt polis skola nih plak cam haem.. harapkan deme nih glame.. iskk.. susah mau describe le... depe pun just nak glame, bukan nak wat xtvt bebtul.. termasuk la ketua guru psukannyer.. mamat tuh...

kelab pulak, irene dapat kelab koir.. iskk. skola irene nih kela koir nyer idop segan mati xmau.. hmm.. irene x pandai men instrumen.. stakat nyanyik ikot anak tekak tu leh aa.. so sisah aa mau lead.. de cikgu yang tau men intrumen plak, yang mmg da assign tuk kelab nih, asyik nak ke kelab bahasa tamil dier jek.. haa.. jadi la kelab yang xbergerak...

sukan, irene still ngan olahraga.. alhadulillah, so far, ini jek yang idop.. bebdak nih pun asyik tanyer irene ttg latihan n tips. insya allah, bukak sem lepas cuti tgh tahun nih, kite start praktis utk tahun depan ekk.. irene nih bukan le sprinter, but nih jek laa sesatunyer xtvt yang irene leh handle g.. tp, itu pun bergantung pada tahap kesihatan irene...

hmm.. ntah laa.. may be sebab irene xredha ngan jadual irene kot.. ye laa.. dapat sme kelas xm, maksimum periods plak tu, n ditambah lagik ngan kelas bahasa inggeris utk geguru sc n maths yang nak kate berjalan pun, asyik tertangguh jek, sebab depe jarang nak mai, escept soang yang bg komitment tu.. tp, xleh nak sa;ahkan deme gak, deme pun de banyak kijer lan kat skola nih, n banyak paperworks nak disiapkan.. irene cakap terus terang, xde satu pun paperworks yang irene ngah kirje kan.. sebab ase da srabut ngat neh...

hmm paperwoks.. filing, listing, planning.. n terbaru, depe nak tuka de subjek ske same ske ngan irene.. namo lahh!!!!

hmm.. kalo laa de org yang nak mendengar, bg moral support kat irene xpe gak.. hmm.. td maser my kazen, abang baba datang betolkan pintu, irene nanges kat dier.. ntah aa.. panjang irene ngadu kat dier.. mende yang slame nih, irene x terluah kat org.. dulu ade gak tpt nak luahkan masalah, prasan, ase gelisah n dsb.. dier dok kat kosi depan irene n tanyer, ape sebenarnyer.. hmm.. irene simpan da terlalu lama katenyer, sampai da nakmerosakkan diri sendrik.. sampai merosot kesihatan irene... n td dier bg irene beberapa tips nak tenangkan diri...

kawan-kawan,

irene nak life yang macam dulu.. yang happy.. yang mane work is fun, bukan work is stress. irene nak hidup yang seimbang macam dulu.. slain kijer, irene de people around me yang mewarnakan enviroment irene.. skang nih irene nampak segala nya itam putih..

kawan-kawan..

org laen sme nyer ade tpt nak luahkan prasaan, suka duka, masalah, berkongsi cerita.. de suami, anak2, adik bradik, or sepupu yang rapat utk berkongsi. irene xde suami, tunang or boipren, apatah g anak2. irene de adik bradik, but adik bradik irene bukan macam org laen yang leh sembang apa saja. abang irene orgnyer serius.. akak ipar irene pun bkan jenis melawak. adik irene plak stone.. sepupu? depe memuda dari irene.. sangat muda... even muda dari adik iren.. would they want to listen to me? kalo yang sebelah abah plk, kami yang bongsu.. sebab abah yang bongsu.. sepupu irene sme nyer da ade anak yang da nak sama baya ngan irene.. da nak bermenantu da depe pun..

or at least, org laen de mak.. de abah yang nak mendengar.. mak irene da pat tahun tgglkan irene.. n abah plak.. hmm.. xlarat laa nak citer.. irene alone tau.. sangat. dulu dok kt pahang, irene de emma. emma tpt irene bergolek n sebagainya. bile emma balik ipoh, irene sunyi.. pas2 irene pindah balik kl. ingatkan kesunyian irene terubat, rupenyer makin sunyi.. boipren pun larik.. hmm.. left outside alone..

kengkawan, cakap terus terang, irene hampir decide nak jadik irene yang sebelas tahun dulu.. tp irene beristigfar.. irene xnak jadik macam dulu.. irene da de kijer elok kan skang.. da de rete yang irene nak kene jaga.. n reputasi yang irene nak jaga.. hm.. tp irene xtahan laa nak tanggung sme nyer dalam ati soang.. berat.. makan diri..

kawan rapat? maser berlalu.. sme org punyer jodoh sendrik n akhirnya de komitment utk diri sendrik n keluarga.. mane de depe nak layan irene selamanya...

hmm.. xpe laa kengkawan.. irene ngah terus tabahkan hati nih... maceh sebab mendengar...

penat gilos!

salam..

Spt tajok kat atas, ari neh mmg penat.. Sukantara.. Hihik.. Alaa.. Yg sme bdk kene amik acara utk dpt mata utk rumah sukan tu.. Irene jd hakim lompat tinggi..

Sblm mula sukantara tu, irene lepak kat kantin. Menom sambil tgk tv.. Skali irene tgk 2 org cikgu lelaki meluru ke arah blakang kantin.. Irene pun meluru la keluar.. Tgk encik kaunselor kua dr surau meluru blakang kantin. Irene tahan dia tanye nape.. Dia kate de budak curik handbag cikgu kat surau. Astaga.. Then nampak 2 org cikgu pompuan kua dr surau n soang tu nanges. Xlama lepas tu, tgk dr blakang kantin muncul cikgu 2 org tu n sorang student. Pas2 cikgu tu bwk budak tu blah. Then jumpe soang utzh ni. Pun br kua dr surau gak. Upenye bdk ni tarik beg cikgu tu waktu cikgu tu ngah amik wudhuk.. Isk.. Kat surau dlm skola pun nk wat pasal ke..

N nak dijadikkan cte, agaknye lps da kantoi n soal siasat, nk serah ke polis la.. Tu sbb sebijik kete polis dtg.. So, bdk yg dtg utk sukantara ni npk la bdk td naik kete polis. Nk dipendekkan cite, salah soang bdk yg dtg sukantara ni, abg bdk tu.. Apalagi, dia bengang adik dia naik kete polis, dia g serang cikgu yg handbag kene tarik td. Apalagas, panggel balik polis dlm kete td, depe patah balik, so ngan abg bdk ni kene angkut..

For info, bdk tu form 2, abg dia form 3..

Tp kalo ikot akai, mmg stujuk ngat la anta polis. Da tunjuk sikap penyangak n samseng.. Hmm.. Wat pe nk simpan dlm skola lg..

Tp skang neh, kementrian n jabatan pelajaran nk kurangkan kadar keciciran pelajar. Xleh nk buang plaja da.. Kan kanak2 wajib berada di skola slama sebelas thn. Means dr standard 1 till form 5 la.. Hmm jd, yg huru haranye, skola la. Da buang tp kene trime blik budak tu masok. Pengetua xleh bantah kalo jpn da arahkan bdk tu masok daftar skola balik.. Jd, ape yg cecekgu leh buat?

Penah dulu, kerana satu kes yg cikgu report polis sbb plaja ugut bunuh, n plaja tu kene buang (mmg dia setan iblis dlm skola tu pun) tp ble dia wat rayuan n jpn suh masok balik, ngan slamba n megahnya dia masok n jumpe cikgu tu, ckp, "tgk pe cikgu leh wat kat saya? Xde pe2. Sy jumpe gak lg cikgu." n student tu terus wat hal n torture minda cikgu tu. Hmm makan ubat darah tggi cikgu tu skang. Umo mude lg, br 32 thn..

So bygkan, mental torture cikgu pompuan td yg beg dia kene ragut n kene serang ngan abg bdk tu.. Camne dia nk face kalo bdk tu n abg dia terus ade kat skola ni, or kalo kene buang tp dpt masuk blik skola tu.. Byg kan la.. Kalo bdk tu ngan senyum mengejek pandang cikgu tu n kate "cikgu, xleh wat pe2 pun kat sy. Sy de lg kat cni."

fikirkanlah..


P/s: tu sbb kat cni irene xapply jd guru disiplin mcm kat phg dulu.. Bdk bdr ni kong!

sabtu yg memelikkan jiwa..

salam..

Ari ni dgr nye satu mesia skola ganti sbb nk raya nnt cuti lama..

Tp skola irene wat hari anugerah kecemerlangan.. Tp mcm cedey tgk xramai parents yg dtg.. Isk, xnk share pencapaian terbaik anak doang ke?

Kalo zaman irene blaja dulu, kalo leh sekampung mak pak dtg skola sbb nk tgk anak naik pentas nk amik adiah. Sbb bangga ngan pencapaian anak.

Ble tanye mane mak awak, diowang jwb, mak keje. Isk.. Abah ngan arwah mak irene dulu amik cuti tau.. N dtg naik bas awam g sbb dulu mane mampu kami nk pakai kete.. Ok jek.. Abah keje syif mlm sanggup xtdo lps keje sbb nk tgk anak naik pentas amik adiah..

Tp parents skang, lg pentingkan rehat n tdo dr ambik tau psl pekembangan akademik anak..

Camne ek nk ubah keadaan neh?

Ni yg wat irene rindu zaman skola irene dulu neh..

seekor van putih yang sengal!!!

salam...

huhu.. niat ari nih first day kijer after recover mood nak baik laa... tp de plak mende yang wat irene geram sepanjang ari nehh...

memula skali, pg td, time reverse kete nak kua paga, irene tgk speedometer tu ok, skalik da sampai kat pandan safari, upenyer meter irene xde gegrak.. isk putus lagik.. for info, yang ke empat kali since nov 2008. nak for info lagik, irene baru tuka since last putus dua minggu lepas, n disebabkan irene sakit, almost 2 mgggu kete x jalan, n meter irene pun baru jek gerak 200km+.. n add to info, nih meter cable, purchase dari proton edar.. n for info lagik, yang putus dua mggu lepas tu ialah cap ayam, kos neyr dua ploh hengget.. memula towcay tu kabo leh jalan sampai ujung lan doblas, tp alhamdulillah, tahan sampai ujung lan mac... geram... sebab sebelum tuka cap ayam tu, irene tuka meter cable kat proton edar, di mana jangka hayatnyer hanyer 3 hari, n proton edar servis yang tu kate meter cable xde warranty, so kalo tuka kene baya agik.. haaa tu sebab irene g bengkel biasa n tuka cap ayam. td, irene tuka meter cable free.. sebab maser tukar tu irene kate irene penah kene gni tp xde cover warranty... so dier suda gerun sama irene suda naik darah itu hari, maka dier bg free... so hopefully, jgn laa wat irene geram maser akan datang nehhh...

geraman yang kedua utk ahri neh ialah, homework yang irene tgglkan pada para pelajar irene sebelum irene sakit tu, deme x siaapkan.. arrrgghh!!!! hampeh!!! x sedar diri exam trial bulan depan, maleh lagik nak wat latihan!!!!! ape nk jadik ntah bebdak zaman skang nehhh!!!!

geraman yang ketiga, sebagai AJK kelab guru, ngape le pengerusi kelab guru tu xde timbang rasa skett.. aku da kol kan kate suh angkat kotak air mineral utk bilik guru tu, simpan, sebab aku neh baru baik sakit.. aku xleh hangkat mende berat lagik, kot jab lagik terkeluar bijik mate aku, dier leh biarkan aku almost satu jam dok kat bilik guru tu tunggu dier.. dier hengat aku neh xde keje laen ke nak tggu dier???? xkan aku nak balik n biarkan tujuh lapan kotak air mineral tu bersidai tetengah laluan bilik guru tu?? nak kene hambun ngan cecekgu ke?? da laa aku dua minggu mc ko nih x reti langsung nak g li air meneral nak letak kat peti tu??? sanggup mamat tu kol aku mggu lepas sebab nak suh aku mai skola just nak beli air mineral bilik guru!! huk.. bengong ke hape?? kalo aku leh g skola li air mineral, maksudnyer leh laa aku g keje.. buduh piang tol!!!!!

ang geraman aku yang ke empat, time aku kua ngan anis g li air mineral tu kat cash n carry tu, de seekor van putih yang bodo n xreti nak kua parking teleh gesel bumper kete aku sekaligus crackkan lampu brek belakang haku, x benti x hape, just terus blah cam tu jek wat haku terpinge2... mangkuk hayun badigol!!!!!!! mmg hampeh n sesangat hampeh van putih itu...


itu lah kegeraman haku hari ini... sekian

me is on MC, again, till friday.. and again, going to meet the specialist on monday.. ohh.. really wanna get better.. wanna go to work.. wanna drive..

salam...

as the title above..

recalled on what my fren had said thios noon when i was at the school getting my GL from the sch office..

"sakit mate ko nih nampak macam simple, tp teruk ekk.."

actually, bermule dengan simple, but due to carelessly taken care, it turned out to be worsen..

bermule dengan mulut yang celupar...

mase akak irene sakit mate sebelom coti skola tu, irene gelakkan dier.. "hahaha.. sakit mate, lemah tul antibodi.. dari opismate pon leh jangkit.." n dengan riakknyer irene kabo kat akak irene, "tgk i, ok jek.. u sakit mata, i jumpe u, xde pepepun.."

it was true.. mmg time tu, akak irene sakit mate teruk, i was still ok.. even time cuti skola tu pon irene ok.. sehat seadanya.. leh g wat keje kat sane cni. time cuti tu pun irene g skola..

but, due to MULUT CELUPAR irene, da dekat cuti skola nak abes, irene leh cakap "KAN BEST KALO KENE SAKIT MATE, LEH SAMBONG CUTI".. ampeh kan.. tp tu lee.. sebab niat da x betol.. iskk.. ALLAH makbulkan...

the result is, since last monday, i felt the itchiness and dryness of my eyes.. n ble malam jek kalo tido tu, taik mate jgn cakap laa.. xleh bukak mate sok pg nyer.. n the redden eye is getting worsen and worsen.. and on Wednesday, right after i settled all my works at sch, i went to the kk @ taman medan.. ok.. get the eye drop and ubat tahan gatal laa.. as well as mc till friday...

got back home.. and have the eye drops.. waited..

on friday itself, still no improvement.. again.. go to kk cheras baru.. nearby my house..

tuka eye drop, dapat antibiotic...

ok. got home, had the medication... and waited...

on monday, visited the cheras baru kk again, and the MA there wrote a letter to refer me to the specialist at the nearest hospital...

at 10 am in the morning, i went to the eye clinic at hospital ampang.. (just a fewe blocks from my house..)

the doc examined using the eyes microscope ( since i dont have any idea on the name of that iron-thing) and detected some infections, and given me a tube of antibiotic..

went home again.. drop the medication again, and again, had mc till wednesday.. meaning today... and an appoitment was set for today's morning...

today. this morning, i went to the eye clinic again.. the doc had detected that the infections has travelled to my left eye.. huhuhu... again, got another medication, and mc till friday...

another appoitment is set to be on monday...

meaning, i have not gone to work for more that a week, my wish was fulfilled...

err.. not a GOOD wish, but ALLAH makbulkan, kerana keCELUPARan mulut sendrik....

masya ALLAH.. ngape le aku nih sangat pendek akal sampai leh mintak mende bebukan nehh...

ya ALLAH.. ampun kan keceluparan mulut ku..

i know, what i have been asked is BADDDDDDDD enough...

i wish i could take back my words...

for info, i couldnt read, write or drive... coz if i focus my eyes on something, it is straining.. and painfull...

i wish this BAD WISH would never happen to be out of my BAD MOUTH..

ya ALLAh.. ampunkan salah silap aku...

truely, i am seriously suffering from this...

masya ALLAH, ALLAH MAHA BESAR...

what have i done....

what is the use of having "people" around you but end up alone when you are not well

salam..

mmg.. ase cedey ngat..

sme rang kua.. hmm.. iren kene kurung dalam umah...

whenever i say i wanna go out just to ease my mind, make myself feel fresh and look at the beautiful world before the earth hour begins, they warn me.. "stay at home! mate tu sakit lagik.. kang making teruk kang.."

isk.. the prob is, i da terperap dalam umah since last thursday.. and ase macam nak gle dah!!! xlarat aa just nak baring tgk tv.. duduk tgk tv. i am not a tv type like u guys do. sementara cuaca ngah terang and my eyes still can see the road nih irene nak kua.. iskk.. dari semalam dok makan roti jek.. iskk.. i am not the roti type!! i wanna real food!!

i know i kene pantang makan, nak elakkan gatal kat mate tu, but pliz laa.. i need real food. i ve tried to eat oats.. yang diorang kate sedap tuh.. hmm.. doesnt suit my taste at all!!

my frens sme nyer bz.. ngan urusan memasing.. ngan family, ngan dating, ngan ntah.. hmm.. sampaikan i even ask to suggest where should i eat pun, depe x tau.. mmg what sakit ati....

well... again, what is the use of having "people" around you but end up alone when you are not well???

tell me...

SAKIT MATA!!!

salam..

sorry for long dissappearance...

irene terlalu bz.. huhu.. mangku kijer orang. hahaha.. xde le bz gegle.. tp.. hishh.. irene bukan de banyak tangan.. sehari pun de 24 jam jek..

so nak dijadikan crite.. since few days ago, irene sakit mata.. actually, since lepas balik dari kenduri kazen kawen kat kampar ari tu da notis da.. mata macam ase kesat sket.. even wearing lens pun kene de drops.. hmm..

so, this week, irene g skola pakai spek jek.. xbani laa nak pakai lens.. isk.. mmg ase kering ngat mata nih.. hmm.. sembang ngan member online.. depe pun kate skang nih musim.. oh ye ke.. anak depe pun kene gak.. isk.. de kawan irene soang tu, the whole famili kene.. dier, laki dier, anak2 dier.. isk.. cian...


punce irene kene?? akak irene le.. dier kene dari opismet dier.. huhu..tp dier kene maser g wedding sepan ari tu.. xtau le kat wedding sepan tu de ke x guest dier yang kene sakit mate.. kalo kene, sila salahkan akak irene ekk..

hmm.. tp maser dier kene sakit mate, iren xde plak kene.. kirenyer, time irene kene nih, dier da beransur baik le.. iskk.. nak wat cam ne ekk da skang nih irene plak.. asenyer xde plak sesape kat skola tu yang kene sakit mate sampai irene leh kene sakit mate nehh..

hmm.. semalam g kinik taman medan.. plan nak mc banyak ari kan.. so kene laa g kk.. kalo nak mc sehari dua jek, leh g private.. huhu.. sebbaek x lama kat c2.. tp irene dapat dua hari jek.. xpe laa.. esok g laa kk kat btr ke cheras baru ke.. amik mc lagik.. janji kerajaannyer..

hmm.. ok laa.. makan ubat tahan gatal nih jadik ngantuk.. iskk.. gatal mate le.. nak menggatal tu, any time pon leh...

ok.. chiowww!!!

p/s: cik sepan.. ang nih balik dari honeymoon sonyap teruihhh aaa...

CROCS..

salam..

ari nih ase macam best..

hehe.. layan bebdak dalam kelas sebab da almost seminggu x masuk kelas..
irene g mssd.. bawak pasukan olahraga skola.. huhu.. dok lepak stadium jek..

semalam balik dari stadium g umah akak kat balakong.. lepak sane.. so meaning, irene just bawak sepasang baju kurung untuk g skola td n sepasang heels yang mmg da simpan lam kete..

slalunyer kalo irene pakai heels pun kat skola, irene akan ade sandal scholl irene dalam kete. but since irene dok usung students lam kete nak bawak pi stadium, all my sandals n heels dalam kete tu irene tinggaikan kat umah..

nak dijadikan cite, irene xde da sandal.. so, nak x nak, my beloved crocs kene laa berkhidmat utk irene kat skola.. huhu..

mmg le irene x pakai all the time kat skola.. i still wear my heels when gettin into the classroom kan.. xpakai heels, alamat, xsampai le irene nak cecah ke top point white board tu.. irene nih kan petite jek.. so, mmg le irene pakai heels tige inci masuk kelas.. heh!!

today, my classes ended at 12pm. huhu.. lege da.. almaklum le.. since ari tu irene da layan snickers kat stadium, tetibe ari nih plak pakai heels, mmg aa ase perit jek kaki, especially tang jenjari tu.. ibu jari. maka, anta jek buku n fail ke bilik guru, terus jek irene menuju ke kete.. n then tuka kasut.. fuh lege.. ase nak menangis da kaki tu td..

hihihikk.. but i have a prob. memandangkan waktu bekerja blom tamat ngan rasmi.. cam ne le irene nak lari ke bilik guru pakai kasut yang sangat obvious tu.. haha.. lantak laa.. maka ngan selambanyer, irene telah berjalan2 dengan nyata n jelas ke sane dan ke sini kat skola tu.. huhu.. kene plak time tu da ujan...

hahaha.. cikgu skola irene kate irene gle!! sangat selamab wat pala sendrik.. isk.. nak wat cam ne.. irene da ase xleh nak jalan da pakai heels tu.. sakit ler.. but anyway, xpe.. as long as xde pentadbir yang tego td..

hihihik...

ok laa.. irene da nantoks..

nite2...

hmm.. tau ade yang heran.. nape sandal CROCS irene nampak macam budak kecik nyer.. actually, mmg irene li yang budak nyer.. kaki irene tecik.. saiz 3.. xleh li yang dewasa.. huhu.. heels irene pun ade certain tempat jek leh li.. sebab x semua company de produce kasut saiz 3.. huhu..

tian x kat irene???

kene tinggai dah...

salam..

Ari ni sahabatku sayang, cik sepan nk menikah.. Huhu.. Of course i am happy for her..

Ari ni gak irene kene g skolah. De motivational camp. Actually dr smlm prog tu bejalan. But coz i am not feeling well, jd, ari ni br irene g jengok..

Xdapat nk g teman, tgk, usik sahabat aku menikah..

Sahabat, irene doakan segalanye bejalan lancar. Pe2hal sms aku tau..

Huhu.. Kak sherry mmg da kaweng pun.. Ixor pung da kaweng.. Ni sepan plak nye turn.. Irene? Ntah ble nk kunjung tibe.. Cedey gak ase.. Huhu..

Life is getting tougher days by days, isn't it...

demam...

salam.. irene demam ari nih...

since last weeknd actually...

kijer manyak... huhu.. semalam da xg teje...

cam ne ekk.. huhu..

serius x larat.. pala pusing...

tulun!!!!

Patut x?

Salam...

Ari ni irene ase penat ngat. Actually dr mggu lps irene ase penat tahap melampau. Ye la.. Ngan preparation mesy pibg n sbgainye.. Even last monday tu cuti, tp xase lege langsung..

Hmm.. Kebetulan on monday tu, i have agreed to fetch some friends from lcct. They were from bandung. Short vacations. Sbg kawan lama n xde plak xtvt on that particular day, i didnt mind la to pick them up. So, irene bwk kete akak irene. Lalala.. Drove all the way to lcct. Akak mmg tgglkan kete sbb dia nk blik kg, xde minyak. So i poured in for rm30.

Dr puchong, i drove to lcct through usj..

Ok, fetched them at 11.30. Then drove off to send one of them at bangi.

Done. Then coz it was already lunch hour, so sggh kat restoren yus.. Mamam.. Xhengat seksyen bape..

"Kire easing ek dek" said one of my passengers.. Ok.

After lunch, since they were all tired n considering two of the were going to drive back to jb, n as they told me they need to rest b4 going back, so i took them to my sis' place at balakong.

Rehat, makan, tgk tv, lelapkan mate. Ok.

Bukak beg tjk souvenir, n amik souvenir. Kek lapis coklat. Sebijik kek, share utk dua rumah. Hmm.. Ok.

Tjk kaen sulam kebaya they bought there. Nk jual. I liked one of them. Ok la. Rege jual bape? Rm150. Tp rege kwn, rm130. Hmm.. "xpe. Amik la. Xyah bya skang. Tggu gaji ujung bln." Silence.

My sis should be arrived from ipoh at 8pm, so they said to wait for her. "Alaa.. Kte dinner la skali ngan ayeen." Ok.

Then i rushed back to ampang to send my sis back to college. Then rushed back to balakong. Arrived at balakong at 8.30pm.

Had dinner at a tom yam restaurant at cavenzi. I only ordered fried rice n my sis ordered nasik paprik. Just had warm water n juice. Done.

At the counter. Again "Ni nk baya skali ke asing ne?" asked the cashier. Suddenly a voice.. "asing". Ok.

Then drove them back to putrajaya, as they park the vehicle at my fren's apt. Hmm.. Took out the luggage from the car, they started the engine, kiss kiss hug hug, then, daadaa.. Silence. Hmm..

Drove back to balakong from putrajaya with my sis. Silence. I looked at her, she looked at me. Then both looked at the road. Silence. Arrived home, the fuel tank had been emptied..

At home..
"not even a word ek.."
?
"xde pun dia tanye ek, bape minyak or tol td.. N xde pun nk pay for the meal.."
Me just silence, coz i have started to feel hurt inside since we left putrajaya..
"bape rege kaen tu? Rege kawan kurang doploh jek dr rege jual?"
Silence again..

The next day, went to school. Dont want to remember that. But another fren of mine talked about her famili vacation. Huh, to bandung too. Didnt know what drove me, i asked..

"ila, kalo kebaya sulam kaen batek tu, bape ek kat sane lps convert duit kte?"
"alaa.. Dlm tige patploh hengget jek kerin."
ZASSS!!!

Drove home that day, i cried. But xpe, the next day i wanted to ask ila if the one i hold now is the one she meant by that price.

The next day..

"Kerin, yg ni la yg ila tgk around rege tu. Kalo nk tgk yg mahal punye, esok ila bwk.."
"haa? Dia jual rege kwn rm130? Kalo ila la jd dia, ila bg jek free kat kerin. Sbb kerin da jemput anta g. Siap bg rehat lepak tdo lg.."
Silence. Drove home i cried. I want to return back that thing to her. I feel hurt.

Dear fren. It is not that i couldnt afford to pay. It is not that the material is cheap. But it is about taking advantages on ppl kindness in the name of frienship.

It makes me so sad that she took my willingness for granted. I am not expecting her to pay back all the expenses, fuel rm30, tol usj klia rm4.70, klia bangi rm5.20. Not to mention my sis' place yg dia sepahkan.. Just looking fwd if she really appreciate us as her fren. It hurts me so much that she just discount the kaen for only rm20, even at that time i said "akak, sy bya rm100 jek la.." dia tarik muke. Then my other fren kate "haah ala akak, cover tol n minyak" and the only word she can say is "ah, xde". And it hurts me more when she didnt even offer herself to pay for my food that not even exceed rm10. And not even asked or mind to ask how much was my expenses to fetch them. Well, in the name of friendship.

Hmm.. I was from ampang, went to lcct. To balakong. Then to putrajaya to send them. Then back to balakong.

Not even a word.

In the name of friendship. Hmm..

Am i being too kind to ppl?

3 songs that i love to listen nowadays...

Tak Mungkin Kerna Sayang - Alyah

Setiba di persimpangan,
Langkah kita tak lagi sehaluan
Bermula di saat itu
Tidak senada irama dan lagu

Begitu hidup ini
Tiada yang abadi
Yang patah tumbuh
Yang hilang berganti

Kau telah jauh, jauh dariku
Tiada ruang di hati buatmu
Namun harusku akui
Ada ketika di minda kau menjelma kembali

Sekali sekala ada
Ada rindu yang datang tiba-tiba
Tak mungkin kerana sayang
Cuma terganggu oleh perasaan

Begitu hidup ini
Tiada yang abadi
Yang patah tumbuh
Yang hilang berganti

RAWAN - AZHARINA AZHAR

Biar berjauhan namamu daku sebutkan
Cukup untuk mengisi
Sepi tika pilu menanti
Bukan bintang atau suria bisa menyinar ceria
Namun kau cahaya menerangi jiwa lara
Berperang dengan curiga di firasatku
Andai kau kembali merawat hati rindu

Ku bahagia pabila kau tiba
Kau lenyapkan rawan
Tak usah dikau pergi
Tak ingin lagi
Meruntun hiba dengan sesalan
Kini kuakui
Segala kemaafan kupohon kepadamu
Agar kau mengerti
Hanya cintamu yang terbaik untukku

Biar berjauhan namamu daku sebutkan
Cukup untuk mengisi
Sepi tika pilu menanti
Berperang dengan curiga di firasatku
Andai kau kembali merawat hati rindu

Ku bahagia pabila kau tiba
Kau lenyapkan rawan
Tak usah dikau pergi
Tak ingin lagi
Meruntun hiba dengan sesalan
Kini kuakui
Segala kemaafan kupohon kepadamu
Agar kau mengerti
Hanya cintamu yang terbaik untukku
Kau untukku


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