Friday, August 20, 2010

KABUS & SIRNA

salam...

lama x layan lagu ELLA...

td da tertido.. tp tetibe terjaga.. then terus terngiang2 lagu neh..
x ingat tajok, google kat net..

owh, kabus dan sirna..

Mengapakah ku rasa
Kedinginannya malam
Sedangkan tubuhku
Dibaluti selimut

Mengapa ku tersa
Sukar pabila bernafas
Sedangku berada
Di pasir tak tersentuh laut

Apakah rahsia yang menirai diriku
Sehingga wajah di cermin terlihat
Bukannya diriku yang sejati
Sebaliknya hanya
Wajah penuh duka

Dalam merawat hiba
Pergi dan hilang sesuatu berharga
Yang belum pun menjadi milik
Peribadiku semalam

Dalam merawat luka
Kabus dan sirna warna dari permata
Yang belum meninggalkan kesan
Sebenar dalam hidupku



hmm... xtau laa nak olah cam ne... biarlah.. aku jek yang tau..
tahan jek pedih hati sendrik..

da sayang pada org yang salah..

Friday, August 13, 2010

CARELESS WHISPER - WHAM

penah dgr lagu neh kan...

I feel so unsure
As I take your hand, and lead you to the dance floor
As the music dies
Something in your eyes
Calls to mind a silver screen
And all its sad goodbyes

I'm never gonna dance again
Guilty feet have got no rhythm
Though it's easy to pretend
I know you're not a fool
I should have known better, than to cheat a friend
And waste a chance, that I'd been given
So I'm never gonna dance again
The way I danced with you - ooh…

Time can never mend
The careless whispers, of a good friend
To the heart and mind
Ignorance is kind
There's no comfort in the truth
Pain is the whole you find

And I'm never gonna dance again
Guilty feet have got no rhythm
Though it's easy to pretend
I know you're not a fool
I should have known better, than to cheat a friend (should have known better - yeah)
And waste a chance, that I'd been given
So I'm never gonna dance again
The way I danced with you, ooh…

Never without your love…

Tonight the music seems so loud
I wish that we could lose this crowd
Maybe, it's better in this way
We'd hurt each other, with the things we want to say

We could have been so good together
We could have lived, this dance forever
But now, who's gonna dance with me?
Please stay

And I'm never gonna dance again
Guilty feet have got no rhythm
Though it's easy to pretend
I know you're not a fool
I should have known better, than to cheat a friend
And waste a chance, that I'd been given
So I'm never gonna dance again
The way I danced with you - ooh…

(Now that you're gone…) now that you're gone
(Now that you're gone…) was what I did so wrong - so wrong?
That you had, to leave me alone


td on the way nak kua dari A&W, de plak lagu neh.. layan.. then, tetibe emosi jadik xmenentu.. sampai skang.. menitik2 air mata kua tanpe henti..

"I'm never gonna dance again
Guilty feet have got no rhythm
Though it's easy to pretend
"
pedihhh.. da lama da ase mcm neh.. x de rhytmhm.. mmg aku ilang rentak ketika melangkah... segala nya jadi x menentu.. teraborr..

"Time can never mend
The careless whispers, of a good friend
To the heart and mind
Ignorance is kind
There's no comfort in the truth
Pain is the whole you find
"
org kate ignorance is bliss.. tp nape aku ase x... semakin aku cube nak ignore, semakin aku hanyut...n mmg kebenaran yang aku mohon itu sakit sangat..

"Maybe, it's better in this way
We'd hurt each other, with the things we want to say
"
kengkadang kata2 mmg menyakitkan.. even xde niat nak melukakan.. peneriamaan memasing.. tp susah nak tafsir kekate yang tertulis.. even berbeza dgn ape yang didengari atau diucapkan..

"We could have been so good together
We could have lived, this dance forever
But now, who's gonna dance with me
"
biarlah.. hanya masa dan keadaan yang akan menentukan.. lagipon salah aku.. yang terus mencari sesuatu yang memang xpasti..

salam...

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Pedih..

Salam..

Ari ni, mencurah curah air mata aku turun. Td pg kat skola, de beberapa guru bukan melayu bertanya ngan aku, nape aku begitu susut sekali. Sbnrnya, mmg da byk x dorang tanye, tp aku xpnah jwb..

Tp td, aku ase, bialah aku crite perkara yg sbnr. Aku crita punca nape aku jd mcm ni. Kerana DIA. Aku susut kerana DIA. Kerana DIA yg sentiasa difikiran aku. Kerana DIA yang tidak boleh aku dampingi dan miliki. Kerana DIA yg aku pernah hilang dulu. Kerana DIA aku menangis siang mlm, samada tika aku berseorangan, atau ditengah lautan manusia.

Aku xpernah aku menyangka aku akan dpt temui dia smule, wpun kini dia adalah individu laen. Tp dia tetap sama pd pandangan mata aku. Aku dpt lihat dia bahagia dgn kehidupan nya kini. Tp aku xmampu utk pergi jauhkan diri aku dr dia. Aku ingin terus mendampingi dia. Walau dr jauh. Aku salah kerana masih mengekori n mengejar dia. 2 mggu lepas, dia ada menyatakan sesuatu yg selama ini aku tidak mahu. Dan, aku tak nafikan, aku sgt terluka. Aku mcm xpercaya apa jua alasan n sebab yg dia nyatakan. Bg aku, itu mimpi ngeri yg aku ingin lari..

Tp ini realiti. Bkn mimpi. Aku xtidur. Dan sejak itu, aku menangis lg. Sampai sekarang. Luka itu besar. Lg besar dr dulu. Kekuatan aku hilang. Xtahu di mana aku nk berpaut.

Kerana aku sayang dia.. Dan aku xmampu utk kehilangan dia.. Utk kedua kali..